future

Most of the time the thought of my future is daunting. The fact that this could be my life forever takes hold of me sometimes thus being why I haven't written in so long, the words just aren't there. I feel like most of my life has been one roadblock after another and it's not stopping yet. I wonder and get lost in the mystery of it all. I want to know what my future holds but God has no obligation to tell me. Trust enters the scene right here because I have no choice but to keep going. I can choose to walk it with God or without Him, that is about the only thing that is up to me and I have tried both.

One path led me to a psych ward and the other is leading my days, my life, my future. The thing is, even though this life is hard I can rest assured He has a plan and it's a good one filled with hope because He promises that to me and I may struggle with it but I believe it.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

"From where You're standing
Lord, You see a grand design
That You imagined
When You breathed me into life
And all the chaos
Comes together in Your hands
Like a masterpiece
Of Your picture perfect plan
When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memory
Cause You're already there"

casting crowns

My daunting life is in His hands. My chaos is a masterpiece of his PERFECT plan. My life was given to me by Him and will become eternal with Him. I now have the choice of what to do with the middle section of this life, we all have a choice in the middle, we will stumble, we will fall, but how  we choose to get back up again is all up to us. Choose wisely.